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Surah Hud 
 
One of the G.D.R. biggest talents had to choose between his life and his career. Marcus Urban decided to quit football and be openly gay.

After the magazine fluter published an interview with an anonymous Bundesliga player, who talked about the challenges he was facing as a gay player in the league, the debate about homosexuality and football once again caught fire. This time around even chancellor Angela Merkel chimed in, stating that the player ”had nothing to be afraid of. We’ll support him if he comes out of the closet”. Uli Hoeness told the Bild Zeitung that ”Bayern München is prepared for the day when one of players outs himself as gay. Everyone in the Bundesliga should be prepared for such an occasion, because it’ll happen very soon.”

A life in hiding
Balancing a football career, whilst trying to keep one’s homosexuality a secret can be quite challenging. The life story of Marcus Urban, known in his playing days known as Marcus Schneider, proves just that.
Urban was one of the brightest talents in the G.D.R. in the mid-80s. The midfielder started to attend the ”Children- and Youth Sporting Academy” in Erfurt from the gentle age of 13. Back then Urban dreamt of winning the World Cup, having posters of Maradona and Pelé on the wall of his dorm room. Winning the World Cup at 18 and playing for the G.D.R. was the Rot Weiss Erfurt’s youth player’s biggest dream. Urban’s future was certainly bright. The midfielder’s name was mentioned as one of the biggest future prospects for Rot Weiss Essen’s first team by one of his coaches. At 1.75 meters tall, and blessed with agility, Urban described his style of play in an interview in 2009 like this

I was incredibly aggressive. I played central midfield and was a play maker like Rafael van der Vaart at Hamburg

Urban was part of Rot Weiss Erfurt’s youth set up that won a surprising championship against greats like FC Magdeburg and BFC Dynamo in the summer of 1985. Frank Engel, coach of the G.D.R.’s international youth team had spotted Marcus’s talent whilst watching him play, telling him after the tournament ”We’ll meet each other once again in the near future!” Engel kept his promise, and Urban was selected to play for the G.D.R’s youth set up on October 23, 1986.
The midfielder would later play with or against players like Robert Enke, Thomas Linke, Bernd Schneider and Frank Rost. The Thuringia native was considered to be as talented as those four players who would become stars in the Bundesliga.
At the same time Urban had to repress another side of himself, one that he couldn’t show in public. Often times Marcus asked himself why he was attracted to men. He was wishing to make a recovery as quickly as possible, and get rid of his homosexuality. The youngster didn’t know where to turn. He was unaware of the fact that being gay was perfectly natural, and that it could be explained by genetic factors. ”The word gay was a curse word for me back then” Urban told Tagesspiegel in 2008.

Early attractions
Urban had realized through his teens that he was attracted to individuals of the same sex. In an interview with Bild the playmaker recalled that he developed a crush on Geography teacher Herr Behrens. Back then Urban was attracted to experienced, matured, fit men according to Ronny Blaschke’s biography ”Versteckspieler”.
Trying to appear straight to the outside world, Urban left nothing untried. His biggest dream was still to become a professional footballer. He cursed out opponents, calling them ”faggots”. The reasoning behind this move was simple: If Urban acted like a chav, the outside woulnd’t suspect him of being gay.
At the age of 15 Urban started reading books about psychology and body language, in order to be able to keep up his masquerade. Being identified as gay was his biggest fear back then.
When Marcus sat in the tram together with another team-mate he simply couldn’t hide his secret any longer:”I’m gay,” he uttered.  Urban was met with silence. Later on one of his coaches would tell the team that ”It is all right with me if you guys take girls to your room. Anything else would disappoint me.”
Was this a direct shot at him? He thinks so to this day! Urban’s play on the pitch started to suffer from the constant pressure he was facing during the time. He was still an artist on the pitch at times, but his game lacked the spark he once had.
Rot Weiss Erfurt were even considering to hire a psychologist to help Urban out. After Germany’s re-unification Erfurt were going to play in the 2. Bundesliga, and Urban was a vital part of their plans. His contract had already been drawn up, but a friendly between RWE and Sachsen Leipzig put an end to those plans. After colliding with an opponent Urban went to the ground, ending up with a cartilage injury.

A personal triumph
After his injury Urban had to come to terms with the thought of not being able to play football on a professional level. After his recovery Urban treated football more like hobby, playing for sides in the lower divisions, whilst studying at the Bauhaus University in Weimar.
During that time Urban decided to take a semester abroad in Italy. During that time Urban learned to appreciate the Italian cuisine, and fell in love with an Italian man. The revelation depressed him, and Urban ended up staying in bed for two weeks. At this point the midfielder realized that he had to give up his dream of becoming a professional footballer. After his trip to Italy Urban managed to get out of the closet and tell his secret to his family and all his friends. Urban managed to lift a massive weight off of his shoulders:

(It was) fantastic! All this pressure was suddenly relieved. And it was well received by my surroundings. From there on out I was much happier. This was my World Cup win

Looking towards the future

Urban is one of the founders of the network ”Football against homophopia”, and is still very outspoken about the subject to this day. During the EURO 2012 tournament, he wrote on the Huffington Post website

Every day, I was hiding. Pretending not to be different next to trainers, teachers, managers, fans, relatives. I struggled trying to control every gesture, and I had no life outside of soccer. Still, I wanted to play against the best so the pain endured

The former Rot Weiss Essen’s player’s story might even be televised in the future! A German film producer is currently developing a movie based on Ronny Blaschke’s biography of Urban.
 
p/s: kejadah nye nih..pasnih sokan apa plak nak yang kena jangkitan kuman nih huhu

Harut dan Marut

sapa tau crite nih? pernah dengar ke? aku pernah dengar crita nih. dalam Al Quran ada di sebut tentang 2 hamba Allah nih.

tp aku nak tulihkan apa yg pernah aku dengar ttg harut marut nih sebelum di beri pencerahan few days back. mengiku cerita tersebut yg aku dengar. harut dan marut nih malaikat tp nk merasa macamna klu depa nih jadik manusia. dipendekkan cerita permintaan mereka ini diperkenankan oleh ALLAH SWT. maka turun le ke dunia dirupakan dengan rupa dua org lelaki. dh lama berjalan bwh matahari, maklum la ke negara arab, depa nih mula terasa perasaan lapar dan dahaga. mana pnah rasa sblm ni pasal depa malaikat. depa jalan sampai ke sebuah kota, dipercayai kota itu ialah Kota Babylon di Iraq.

akibat rasa lapar dan dahaga yg tak penah dirasa sblm ni, depa ni tanya la kt penduduk setempat, kenapa adanya perasaan ini. org tempatan pelik tapi pasal ropa depa cam org baik-baik maka dijamu dgn makanan dan minuman. masuk jek air kat tekak, rasa lega la dua org nih. bila jamah plak makanan lagi lega la depa rasa. sebagai balas budi, depa pun tunjuk skill skit. depa nih mempunyai ilmu yg tinggi dalam ilmu sihir. bile tengok jek skill depa nih, maka jadila buah mulut org. hari demi hari berita sampai kat raja dan raja pun nk tgk la skill depa nih. di jempaut ke istana, skill dipertontonkan dan terus dilantik jadik penasihat sihir di raja.

dikatakan oleh cerita ni, bila dh senang mcm mcm la ujian datang. antaranya ujian minum khamar/arak, berzina dan membunuh. maka depa pilih minum khamar pasal depa igt yg ni dosa besar yg ringan. bila dh high kebetulan ada plak wanita wanita baeeekkk punya, maka mereka pun berzina. pasal depa dah ada syahwat. aktiviti ni berlaku sampai mereka keletihan dan tertidur. bila tersedar, terperanjat la situasi yg ada kt situ. wanita-wanita dlm keadaan yg amat memalukan. so utk tutup cerita, dibunuh wanita-wanita tu utk cover perbuatan jahat depa sblm nih.

bila dh jd gitu, dedua nyesal dan kluar dr istana dan berjalan takde hala tuju kt padang pasir.sampai pecah-pecah la tapak kaki sambil menyesali perbuatan depa, mereka mengadu kepada ALLAH SWT. mengikut cerita nih, ALLAH SWT bg option plak kt depa, samada nyawa ditarik dan akan di azab di neraka ataupun settlekan di dunia sampai akhir zaman tp x mati. takut ke neraka, option ke 2 di pilih. sampai ari ni di rantai di babylon samapai kiamat.

cerita ni cerita bani israel ataupun di sebut juga sebagai israilliyyat. sila klik.

bideo pencerahan

cakap melayu

wallahualam

Weekend Macam2 Ada..

 Ponuh la jadual minggu nih. ada baby baru, ada org balik dari perantauan, ada org wat majlis kawin n ado Malaysia day.

14 september, adik pompuan gua selamat melahirkan anak lelaki secara normal kt spital swasta kodah darul aman. Alhamdulillah, makan tahun jugak la nunggu akhirnya, apa yang di idam tercapai. corak le kain putih itu sebaik mungkin. pesanan ini pun utk den jugak. huhu.

15 september lagi satu adik gua balik dari rantau org. 3 bulan dok europe, posa rayo huhu. tp balik gomok laie ado la. siap tambah kilogram. nmpk sgt mudah muslim nk p mana2 skarang nih. ptt nye gua pick up dia kat KLIA pasal STA pukol 8 pagi. kebetulan aku keje shif malam, tak payah susah suh org lain amik. tp huhu flt delay, new ETA jam 1300 hrs. maka di kontrakkan tugas tersebut kt adik MMU gua hehe.

16 september ni ari malaysia. spupu gua ada buat majlis kenuri sempena beliau berjaya bernikah. pasal aku staf sarekat tambang murah, maka naik kapal le p sana. ujan renyai masa boarding. complete boarding, pintu pun tutup, mencurah trus ujan turun. Alhamdullilah sojok skit. ble dh ujan, maka akan delay la flight. traffic congestion plus gate holding due to adverse weather. 35 minit lepas STD, line - up runway 32L and off to AOR. gua lolap hehe. soda dh descend and landed safely and smoothly runway 04. tabik spring kek captain tersebut.

apak moh adik ipar den pick up kek epot dan heading to umah pengantin utk breakfes. siap breakfes dh konyang, poie plak umah adk den nk jumpo baby. baby boy dan bertambah la koleksi cucu apak moh omak den. lopeh den charge la battery. maklum la balik kojo malam. ponek bhhai hehe.

potang dh pukol 3 br gerak ke umah kenuri. sib baik ado nasik lauk pauk laie. jumpo la spupu yg mai kenduri. ado naik ketapi, naik kapal n ado yg drive. yg seprais nya, kwn skolah den pun ado yo kek situ. kebetulan ado bau2 asam keping ngan dio. lamo tak jumpo. bilo dh lamo tak jumpo, mako burak eh pun buleh la tahan panjang eh kan hehehe...

malam gerak smula ke epot. balik la kg den la plak. janji mmg nk mai kenuri jak. flight on time ari ni. x payah tggu lelamo. depart AOR rwy 22 arr KUL 32L. smooth flight pasal skali lagi aku berjaya membuta in flight..hehe

p/s: klau tak silap Jasmin Hamid naik satu flight AOR/KUL..pastu nampak plak Norshahrul Idlan Talaha kek LCCT

Monday Blues ?

ni ari kene keroje la. dekat seminggu dok umah sajek, bukan coti tapi bidang tugas gua 'memaksa' keadaan itu berlaku. adik gua yg bongsu dk selamat naik flight menuju ke timur tengah. departure 0330 pagi di KLIA. omak, ayah n my other brother antau. wat pe nak antau gegamai. tp best la. epot lengang. bulih la klu nak main futsal.

balik umah dh dekat pukol 4 pagi. salin baju masuk tido. punya la sejok. ujan ghupanye pagi nih. Rahmat Allah SWT. tp bila dh kene keje pagi ni, kene sabo la. maklumla lerja dengan sarekat tambang murah, kami tidak menggunakan PLB/Aerobridge/Jet Bridge . dan akan terdapat la consequences nya yang dah memang di jangka. hehe sakit kepala skit la keroje. tah hapa aku buat tadi pun aku tak ingat. dengan internet connection yg tak berapa hebat ari nih. jammed jugak la urat saraf.

kuyup bai hehe

masa dh time balik la. malam nk kuar lagi. bersokan plak. lamo dah tak berpoloh nih. sampai domam la den di buek eh. alasan la nk kuar malam tu. join brader umar MAB. aku tak knal sangat dia tp pernah jadi partner la masa bersokan kat Desa Cempaka. 7 set yang memenatkan. kesian partner aku. dh aku dok gelak jek main. nak di jadikan cerita, spek badminton gua patah. aduyai. gua mmg pakai spek klu bersokan, bleh terjatuh plak tadi. mcm2 plak di demand eh. roadtax keto ujung bulan mati, spek plak terbarai. huhu

world champion, olympic gold medalist. encik  Fu HaiFeng dan Cai Yun

p/s: tokak den ando laie beruang kek dalam eh.. huhu ubat tak makan ikut jadual bilo nak sehat eh kan

Post Aidilfitri 1433 Hijrah

keje x abis2 nih. aku ingat lepas raya bleh rileks skit tp makien banyak plak keje aku. sekejap g sana pasang khemah, pastu g tempat lain bukak khemah. dh siap bukak, kejap lg hantau kan tempat lain plak. pasang plak kt situ. nih ujung minggu lagi sakit la aku. bukak pasang bukak pasang jek la khemah. tu dia penangan open house. tak kira la peringkat rumah, taman, korporat, agensi penguatkuasa, kerajaan, parti politik. ni keluhan kawan gua. rakan sparring badminton. kebetulan dia plak keje dengan majlis perbandaran. kerahan tenaga beb. sian gua tengok beb.

anak gua nombor dua aitu kena jangkitan mata or conjunctivitis. sian nk bukak mata x bleh. taik mata berselepet ponoh. g BSP utk dpt kan rawatan smlm. bini gua punya komen lps jumpe doc, comei jek doktor tuh. dh la chubby, comei plak tuh. huhu. ari tgk ada progress yg baik. Alhamdulillah. Insha Allah ok la kot 2-3 ari lagi.

sabtu ada membe wat open house. maklum la sabtu. ada satu kat bukit jalil. satu lagik kt sah alam. huhu sampai ke aku? Insha Allah kalu di izinkan.

p/s: taman gua ada buat baraan sempena aidil fitri. bleh plak satu kutu nih sajes, yg dia sanggup batalkan game badminton malam kamis nanti dengan harapan umah aku jadi hos dan demand kambing golek..hhuhuh patut ke?po

NZ All Blacks

 

bila commercial menguasai keadaan, tradisi di tinggalkan/lupakan. nih sib baik dia punya training wear bukan official jersey . dh cam pondan plak seko seko bila memasing makai jersey pink belang biru.  ni suma all blacks punya back line. forward ada jugak yg dh pakai tapi bila encik ritchie mccaw sudah menjeling tajam, dua eko forward tadi trus bukak dan pki bj training biasa. Express yourself, that is what the All Blacks is about

uhuhu petang tadi gua p seremban. sampai sana menghadapi masalah utk locate service center u mobile. jadah mana nak raba kan nih. call me wife tanya bleh tolong google kan dari ofis or call branch tu snang den nk locate. dapat akal, tgk kotak broadband ada plak nombor umum utk di dail. dail and tanya where is the branch and the office number. the answer really surprised me. any of u mobile service center do not have a fix telephone line. a telecommunication service provider do not have a fix telephone line in their own office !! haiyaaa. mcm ni punyo kompeni pun ado. sib baik receptionist tuh bg landmark pasau besau seremban and bersebelahan dengan maxis service center. Alhamdulillah jumpo.   

balik kampung after settle urusan. mak gua buat doa selamat. sempena tunang adik gua kot and dia pun nak balik nnti 10 aibulan. dapek makan nasi arab. ari tu gua missed pasal miscom dgn adik gua. sodap huhu.  sok malam, kontijen eropah akan berlepas pulang. dok kg KLIA la mlm sok.

p/s: dapek pow apo lak sok kek KLIA hehe?

Pembayaran

banyak tempat berkenaan dengan duit nak kena singgah ari ni. kena melawat bandaraya seremban sat lg. mps, u mobile. huhu. ptg nnti insha Allah balik kg sat. nk attend kenduri adik gua. di jangka pulang ke timur tengah utk mensambung pengajian medik nya. pak sedara gua yg bertugas di eropah juga di jangka berlepas 2 hari lagik. adik gua ada sorg ada kt bumi eropah sedang bertugas. 3 bulan kt sana. 14 sept di jangka pulang ke tanah air malaysia. sonot gile dengau kan gomen/kompeni antau bertugas kt luau negara. ati jek tau pedih rindu kt family/sedara mara/buah ati kt malaysia nih.heheh

 tah kt mana branch u mobile ni kt seremban. nk bayar utang me wife boss. suda salah beli. di suruh beli pre paid, si boss beli post paid. trus wife gua rasa cam nk jadik incredible hulk. ratusan jugak le kena bayau. since may plak tuh. huhu..

pas tuh, nk kene p mps plop..kena saman parking..huhu..70 hengget beb..kne rayu nih..sesia jek melayang duit..parking dgn berhemah walau di mana anda berada dude

lupa plak, kena jugak sggh maxis. nk pulang bb device pasal umah den dh install streamyx huhu


ps : ari pertama posa 6 syawal

Melawat Kawasan

semalam ahad. kebetulan duty malam. maka dh diplan aktiviti sebelum masuk keje. poie melawat abg spupu den kt  spital. sakit saraf di koba an. sebelum di admit, brader nih punya kaki kanan sakit gile. x bleh gerak langsung. nk jalan pun tersiksa satu badan. even jejari kaki bergesel pun beliau tersiksa. ambulans di panggil utk beliau dikejarkan ke spital. skarang nmpk ok skit pasal bergantung pada steroid. bleh la bergerak2 skit. brader nih pun lasak. jarum masuk obat dlm tangan pun bleh bengkok.

 selosai melawat, poie plak umah abg spupu den yg lain yg kebetulan melawat saing den. mmg tak ponah poie umah dio selamo nih. dh nk pencen br jumpo umah dio. nyembang tanyo pasal kojo, apo aktiviti plan bilo dh pencen nnti. tok siak sejid koba eh. tukang vakum karpet hehe. elok la tuh.

next stop, poie plak umah sepupu den yg laie satu. kebetulan dh janji dgn dio poie melawat abg sepupu di spital. dh jomput dio kek umah eh, kono la anta balik kan. ado masalah ghupo eh spupu gua nih. masalah lamo. pendam sampai jadi gunung everest la. kesian plak donga cito dio. tp dh dijanjikan dlm Quran, ayat Surah Al Baqarah. tak disusahkan seseorang itu dgn masalah yg tak bleh ditanggungnya. sumo ada jalan penyelesaian eh.

Pesan-Pesan Ayat

Di antara pesan-pesan dua ayat tersebut adalah:

1. Menyebutkan sifat agung seorang Mukmin, yaitu mendengar, ta’at (patuh) dan komitmen terhadap perintah-perintah Allah.
2. Di antara keimanan yang esensial adalah iman kepada Allah, Malaikat, kitab-kitab dan Rasul-Rasul-Nya.
3. Wajib beriman kepada seluruh para Rasul dan kitab-kitab-Nya tanpa membeda-bedakan di antara mereka
4. Betapa besar rahmat Allah kepada para hamba-Nya, di mana Dia tidak membebankan mereka kecuali sesuai dengan perbuatan-perbuatan yang mereka mampu lakukan dan tidak memberikan sanksi atas kelupaan, ketidaktahuan akan hukum atau kesalahan yang mereka lakukan.
5. Di dalam ayat-ayat di atas terdapat hal yang mengindikasikan adanya kemudahan dan tidak mempersulit di dalam perkara agama.
6. Allah telah mengabulkan doa para hamba-Nya dengan doa-doa tersebut (dalam ayat), oleh karena itu Dia mensyari’atkan bagi mereka membacanya di rumah dan ketika akan tidur.

Rumah Terbuka Kengkawan

weekend, indah le sesapa yg keje opis hour. menikmati cuti ujung minggu yang panjang. baru naik coti raya, coti plak merdeka. tahun nih 31 ogos hari jemaat, panjang le langkah sesapa yg bujang. sapa yg ada rezeki lebih jemput le kengkawan sedara mara utk menjamu selera sempena raya. open house la kite ye yeob.

tak ke mantap tuh bro

org melayu kita skang nih dh pandai buat makan cam negara barat sinun. contoh paling ketara la, tiap umah terbuka mesti ada grill utk buat bbq. dulu stakat nasi impit, lontong, abis power pun nasi tomato, nasi minyak satay. skrg trend baru musti ada lauk grill. tak kira la ayam ke dagin ke kambin ke. yg pasti klu kambin yg di grill, sodap sehingga menjilat ibu jari kaki.

itulah yg den hadapi di umah terbuka kwn den. tp tak dapat meluangkan masa lama utk menikmati grill kambin tersebut. terpaksa berkejar ke lokasi lain. bujang sulung kena kidnap dgn busu nya. so tak leh dok lelama. kang banjir plak rumah kt BSP dek banjir bujang sulung.

p/s: even i spent about 15 minutes at my friend's open house, managed to tambah the nasi twice and taste the wonderful grilled mutton. gile babi siot laju gua makan.

Merdeka Malaysia 55

hari ni 31 ogos 2012, cukup 55 tahun negara ini merdeka. apa pengisian merdeka pada org cam aku? trus terang aku katakan, bg aku 31 ogos mcm hari cuti biasa jek. pasal pe? aku x paham sengsara org zaman penjajah dulu. dari zaman british, jepon, zaman darurat samada dari pengganas komunis ataupun darurat 13 mei. zaman skrg sudah senang. segala mcm benda kt ujung jari jek. api petik,pili putau,gas/petrol tekan. sgt senang kan.

bg aku la, klu semangat kemerdekaan, pemahaman ttg erti merdeka tak diterapkan dari zaman budak2, maka akan bertambah punah ranah lah generasi y yg akan dtg ni. x caya? kebanyakkan kita dr generasi x, zaman di beranakkan tahun 60 - 80 an. brp rmi generasi x ni tersadai samada kt tepi pembahagi jalan, tergadai kt lorong2 gelap, tersungkur kt penjara kajang. gen x ini sepatutnya develop bangunkan gen y, tp byk sgt contoh x baik even dari gen x sendiri. dh guane plop gen y nk memimpin gen terkemudian kelak.

terus terang di katakan kebanyakkan pemikiran kita masih tegar dibayangi oleh penjajah especially british. tak yah g tgk jauh la. contoh nya yg dok mengarang. kunun nye fanatik bola la tp every single weekend dok layan ke BPL, La Liga, Bundesliga, Ligue 1 huhu. samo yo memasing kan. kata jek merdeka, minda di jajah laie. baru tengok sudut sukan jek tuh, tak tengok sudut lain laie huhu

akhir kata yg baik itu hanya dari Allah SWT dan yg buruk itu datang nya dari diri yg hina dina ini. jom le berubah ke arah umat Islam yg lebih baik.. amin

p/s: weh gua tak sokong mana2 parti tapi tertegaknya syariat Allah 100 peratus adalah lebih baik dari perlembagaan sedia ada